A little bit about me

Here is a little about me and my experience with Methamphetamine, how I became sober & what goes on in my every day life. So first things first, my name is Nicole. I was addicted to Meth for 4 long years. I am sure you are wondering what made me try it, right? So here goes....

After the death of my son in 2002, my sadness was so overwhelming that I was desperately searching for something to take me out of myself so that I no longer had to feel. I tried it out of curiosity and because I wanted to. I was searching for a solution to stop my pain.
I have been putting off telling my story for long enough. It's time to proceed.
I don't want my story to be misconstrued in any way, I am not trying to glorify the highs of my using days, I want to let my story be known to help others in recovery or anyone still in active addiction. Using Meth for 4 years took it's toll on me physically, mentally & emotionally. I won't go into detail right now about my crimes and things I did while high, but I want to let people know that there is hope! I am living proof of that. The amazing thing is that I am still alive to tell my story. I am proud, not ashamed of allowing my story to be told because I hope others will see what I had to go through and understand that this drug...any drug for that matter is not the best medicine for life's problems when certain things in our lives aren't how we would like them to be.
Those 4 years were hell for me. I was deceiving all through out my addiction. Finally I got into trouble and spent some time in jail. I was required to attend Drug Court and Probation. If it weren't for Drug court who knows where I would be now! I just recently celebrated my 4 years of sobriety on January 24th and it feels AMAZING!
Anyway, I would like to state a few things that have helped me along the way.....
Some say "relapse" is a part of recovery, I call bullshit! It doesn't have to be. Anyone is capable of a relapse. It is a choice, and I choose not to get high. Once you have been introduced to recovery, using is not the same anymore. The guilt you feel is overwhelming. The most important part is coming back. Doing the next right thing is all that counts! So my advice to you if you are reading this blog is to keep it simple. NOBODY gets magically cured. It takes hard work, but it is MORE than worth it. It is scary and terrifying, but walking through those fears has given me the self esteem that I have never had before. If I can do it, ANYONE can. As long as you are alive it is NEVER too late. There is life after Meth!
Some of my keys to recovery are honesty, willingness, determination and a support system of family and friends. So stay tuned my friends, this ride has just begun....I will have my story up soon so please visit me again in the future.